Prologue
Dog
An observer looking in on the sight would
have taken the naked white man for either one of the mentally unhinged or a
pervert so dyed-in-the-wool it made no difference.
Why else would a man remain in such a
position in the light and airy hallway of a family home as sunlight filled its
interior to reveal him alone, eyes fixed upon the double-doorway leading to the
secure and gated gravel drive beyond and the sea in the near distance?
After all, there were no chains or other
tangible signs of restraint keeping him in such an abject position.
Surely, it could only be a mental imbalance
of some kind, medical or sexual, that kept him in place?
So would the ignorance of a chance observer
lead them to think.
They would have been wrong.
For what kept the man once known as Michael
Renton in place, was not visible.
Even if it was equally binding.
More so!
Thankfully, the physical pain had left him
now and would not, said the surgeon responsible for it in the first place, be
returning.
Which did not mean that other, fresher, pains would not take its place.
Pains inflicted upon him by the human hand
he was unable to prevent and proved a nice counterpoint to the mental anguish
that was always with him.
A nice counterpoint for
his sadistic owners, that is.
For despite his knowledge that he had once
been a free man in civilised Western society, he could now do more than concede
that he was as much a piece of family property to the hateful Arab couple and
their two female retainers as the Jack Russel he had once owned himself at that
time when he headed up the family also containing his wife and three girls.
A concession that ensured the paltry
palliation provided by memories of better times was no longer anywhere near the
consolation it had first been since his life had been torn from him in the most
barbaric and unimaginable of ways.
Ways far removed from the loving way his own
family had cared for their own pet-dog.
The mental pain of his transformation was as
fresh and constant to his thoughts as its physical counterpart had been until
the wounds confirming his transformation had healed.
Mental pain that he knew would never leave him - no matter how much his memories of his
former life... dulled.
Beaten eyes watered as the memory of what he
had once been and was no longer stabbed him to the heart of where his manhood
once resided yet again.
Just the same, as he waited in subdued
silence, knees tender against the cool ceramic patio floor tiles and all but
useless hands held out before him with fingers stretched and lowered towards
the tiles in the way expected of him, it was to this ever-diminishing
consolation of "what had once been" that
he returned in order to take his mind from the living
nightmare to which he had been consigned.
And from which deliverance was no longer an
option.
He was a forty-year-old Englishman who
should have been at the peak of his physical and mental powers and enjoying the
family life for which he and his slightly younger wife had worked so hard to
make a reality.
Yet here he was, on his knees and naked,
apart from a collar and the accursed contraption securing his genitals, in the
hallway of an expensive home resting slightly back from the Bay of Hormuz and
just outside the harbour city of Bandar-e Lengeh in
an affluent enclave of Iran.
And not in such a position through choice.
For Michael Renton, as he had once been
known, was no longer capable of standing upon his two legs and moving in the
normal way of the human biped.
Even if such an eventuality, and one that
billions of men the world over took for granted, now numbered amongst his
fondest fantasies.
And even if he knew he would never be a real
man again.
The surgery his inhuman owners had insisted
be carried out on him had assured that.
Together with... other ...equally
unpleasing new realities.
His thoughts again raced back to his wife
and family back home in Corfe, the idyllic Dorset village beneath the famous
ruined castle that overlooked the waters of the English Channel, and again his
eyes began to leak; despite knowing such evidence of his internal misery would
serve only to delight his owners.
Thoughts of the female half of that equation
filled his thoughts, and he felt the usual mix of white-hot anger and debilitating
fear that always accompanied such thoughts of the young and decidedly unlovely Arab
girl.
The same girl who, amazingly for a country
such as Iran, had taken over the running of the Iran construction-company left
by her late father to her younger brother and made it even more lucrative. Her
teenaged brother being less than the sharpest tool in the desert tool-shed and
having neither the intellectual nor the social skills to manage such an
undertaking. As well as having more... proscribed ...tastes
when it came to sex than was acceptable to the rulers of the Muslim country in
which they lived.
For, in Iran, same-sex sexual activity remained
illegal. Be the same sex in question male or female. Since the 1930s
homosexuality is a crime punishable by imprisonment, corporal punishment, or by
execution - though gay men have faced stricter enforcement actions under the
law than lesbians. In fact, any type of
sexual activity outside a heterosexual marriage is forbidden; transsexuality in
Iran, however, was considered legal, if accompanied by a gender confirmation
surgery - with Iran, again surprisingly, carrying out more gender realignment
operations than any other country in the world after Thailand.
Just the same, the penalties for those
engaging in homosexual acts remained draconian and ensured they were practiced
only under the most secure and secretive of circumstances.
And how much more secure and secretive could
those circumstances be than when they took place behind the closed-doors of a
private residence?
Witnessed only by indulgent and receptive likeminds.
And performed on an animal without any of
the rights accorded a human.
Even if he was an animal of the male variety
and had once been a vibrant and independent human-being.
An animal still recognisable as the
free-standing man he had once been.
Even if he was on all-fours in the way of a
canine.
It was just as his thoughts returned to a
picture of himself and his family in happier times, that Rashida - the younger
and slightly more physically appealing of the two maids who ran the home for "Ms Zaynab" and "Master Qusay",
the other being the older Bushra - entered from the kitchen door at the side
and opened the door to her two employers as they returned from whatever
business that had required their leaving.
By the look of the bags in the hands of
Bushra as she trailed in behind them in the role of porter as well as chauffeur
and housekeeper, it had been for pleasure rather than business.
Michael Renton's muscles tensed and he felt
the familiar nausea at the sight of them both as he knew what would soon be
expected of him.
Very soon.
"There is our good boy, Qusay!" the hateful
tones of the woman in her early-thirties he had once known as Zaynab
Al-Ghazzawi pointed out, her English thick with the influence of her own mother
tongue and, consequently, giving the white-man's humiliation an even sharper
edge. "See how obediently he waits for his Arab masters?"
"Yes, Zaynab," the less than cerebrally
advanced teenager agreed, his thought processes less than those of the usual eighteen-year-old;
something, along with his shortness and somewhat frail stature, that brought
the older man's service to him into even starker relief. "He is a most pleasing
dog and I am looking forward to us agreeing on a name for his new collar."
Both insisted upon speaking English around
him that his humiliation might have a keener, and more verbal edge - as if it
could get any edgier! The sister's, though heavily inflected with her own
native-tongue, was better than her younger brother's. Not, surprisingly, that
the more cerebrally-challenged one's English was bad - just a little more... childlike.
His sister had flicked back the hair then,
having worn it free to take advantage of the recent ruling that would no longer
be arrested for appearing in public with their heads uncovered - this almost 39
years after the strict dress code was introduced, the thick black spectacles
she wore doing nothing to alleviate either the prosaic configuration of her
facial features or the severity imparted by a curving nose with thin and flared
nostrils and cheekbones more readily associated with the equine than a female
in her early thirties - of Arab origin or otherwise.
It was - her hair, Renton had assured
himself grudgingly, that was the most attractive part of her. Stygian black and
lustrous as it fell to her shoulders. At times, even managing to detract from
the features below it he found so repulsive and... hateful.
But only at times.
And few and between were they at that.
She was dressed this day in Western fashion,
with a loose white blouse above tight-fitting lycra-leggings
that clung tenaciously to legs Renton, again grudgingly, described to himself
as shapely - even if they were more of that librarian-cum-schoolteacher
shapeliness so many men of a submissive outlook enjoyed.
An outlook that had never played
any part in his own sexual make-up.
The worse for him!
His life, when it came down to it, would be
so much more bearable if he took pleasure in the humiliations heaped upon him on a daily basis.