They say you are as young as you feel, but
it's odd if you feel young, but are trapped in an old woman's body. Agnes was
thinking that as she waited for the physical therapist.
She had fallen getting out of the bathtub,
something that could happen to young person, but it made her feel old and
helpless. The facility, a senior living complex, put in grab bars, which made
her feel even older. She had moved there because she didn't want to be alone
after her husband passed away. The facility had a skilled nursing unit and
assisted living. The section where she lived had independent and retirement
apartments. The facility advertised an active lifestyle for older adults. They
didn't use the word senior anymore.
The physical therapy area in the hospital was
filled with exercise equipment, tables, and had the smell of disinfectant and
ligament. She was sitting on the edge of a long table in shorts and pullover
top. Three other people were having their weekly treatments. A young man, with
blond hair, walked in carrying a chart.
Oh, what an Adonis. I could just eat him up.
He was wearing very tight shorts, a body
shirt showing off his tanned, muscular, arms.
"Hi, I'm Mark; I see we had a little fall."
"Yes, it wasn't very serious," she replied.
"Do you have any pain?"
"Just a little."
"Please, get on your back; I want to check
your range of motion."
Yes, mount me. Oh stop, you are seventy, old
enough to be his grandmother, and shouldn't be having these thoughts.
In the next few minutes, he had her lifting the
legs, and getting on her side moving her leg back and forth. He touched her hip
and the back of the leg, but purely clinical. Her husband was not creative,
never wanting to try anything new in the bedroom only wanting the missionary
position. Their sex life had always been just adequate. When they first got
married, it was once a week and as the years went on it became less frequent
even going several years at one point. She was a trophy wife. Her function was
to maintain the home and to be presented at parties and company functions. She
was attractive and thin and was expected to be the good wife and never ask for
anything.
He had her leg over his shoulder and was
moving it back very slowly.
I wonder if he can smell how wet I am how
much I want him.
"Your range of motion is fine."
He was inches from her.
She
followed his instructions through a series of exercises.
Is he feeling me up? Or is it just that I
want him too? His hands are driving me crazy.
Finally, he sat down on a bench, made some
notes on the chart and said, "I will give my report to your doctor, have a good
day."