EXTRACT FOR
Paying My Debts With My Body In My First Gangbang
(Nicola Diaz)

From the outside, my life is perfect. I know this, because all my friends think that I've made it. I'm young, 25, with a great job. To already be a college professor at 25, so soon after graduating from an English Lit program at college myself, is apparently unheard of. The debt though that it took for me to get my qualification is really taking over my life. And while I have managed to keep this debt to myself, the bills that I get every month are a constant reminder of this commitment. 



At least I have a job though, I tell myself. I try to talk myself into thinking positive every day.  I tell myself, I say 'Lucy, all is going to be well. You will eventually get out of this mess!' Such bullshit!!!



This morning is no different to any other too. I run through my 'positive thinking' shit, knowing that nothing will change on this particular day. It hasn't changed thus far, and I don't foresee this changing any time soon. As I look at myself in the mirror, making final adjustments to my outfit, I know that my looks had played a huge part in my getting my current job. I'm not complaining though, but the fact that I am now committed to a three year contract at minimum pay means that I cannot market myself to any other colleges for the foreseeable future. 



What this means therefore, is that for the foreseeable future, I will not be able to meet my debt responsibilities. I am well and truly fucked!



I get to the college with about twenty minutes to spare. I hate coming to work early, because if I'm not dealing with some of the older teachers hitting on me, I am stuck in my classroom with too much time to think about my current situation. I hate my current situation, and therefore hate thinking about it. So I try to arrive five minutes before my first class, and then leave immediately after my last, usually not even staying for our usual afternoon staff meeting. The fact that it is a community college means two things though. One, that most of the students are older, so that it would not be inappropriate if you had an affair with one of them. And two, most of the students were of the colored variety, which fueled my fantasy to a very large extent.